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I MISSED THIS.

these are the moments i cherish with her. we had our shortcomings (well the previous one was longer, so longcomings?) oh well :) we had thai food for dinner, then spanish chocolate and eclairs for dessert. good laughs, good talk, good vibes. this are the moments i love with her. 

thank you father God for a precious day. 

all is well and i hope it will be so and so and so. 

♥

do i even need to expound on that?

the brother ng bayan is back in lilo city and we had an impromptu get together. 

met at starbucks, then went to the green mountains for some long overdue laughs and bonding. 

yes, we missed him too much.

we missed his buffering! hahaha ;)

oh and btw, take that arnis! you think you got him? there wasn’t supposed to be a choice in the first place. take note, we didn’t make him choose between you and us. you just felt it was competition. 

oh poor you for being left out in the cold. boo!

with all that said, welcome home toto! get a better life with lesser drama, ok?

xcess: sorry if there were no photos. not much prepared. teehee*

regardless of all the downfalls and heartaches. 

i believe God is good to me just because. 

i am not the nicest person in the world or the most truthful or the most sane.

but, jeez, He loves me so good. so damn good it’s overwhelming. 

iCe is happy. (to infinity and beyond!)

i know im going to regret this.

i know this is going to hurt.

i know this will end my happiness.

i know this will be the beginning of a lonely place.

am i ready?

no one is ready for sadness.

just like the funnel like shape you see when you flush the toilet. you feel like it’s the end of everything. you feel like there’s no more turning back. 

this feels like it. 

this feels painful.

i know forsure that i am going to regret this for the rest of my life. 

im sorry for hurting you.

things will never be clear for me and you.

i love you, that was what i was sure of. 

was.

i wish i won’t go to rehab. 

i wish i won’t look for this. 

i wish it won’t be a craving i can’t stop.

this is going to be the death of me.

and dying begins …now.

he took a part of my heart.

~fin~

how long was i away on tumblr? now that i have come back everything looks weird. what happend? was this something good? the change? oh dear. im lost.

i am a normal insane human being, dumb at times. 

a woman

28 years on this earth

five foot and 2 inches in height

a scorpio

a fourth japanese, a few drops of spanish and chinese and then a lot of filipino blood. 

i am not a celebrity. 

i am just iCe. 

but this dumbER human being. seriously said that he is a FAN. 

i am seriously overwhelmed. surprisingly, it made me smile. 

YOU made me feel like i have worth! (no i’m joking)

hey mister happy pill? do you want my autograph now?

from where i am at, it is seriously 35 degrees of heat. and it’s not fun when you get to be a woman at this time of the year. heat flushes are just insane and you’re mood is just erratic as the possible winds that come and go. 

at around fourteen hundred hours, i craved for chocolate cake. not just any, those double iced chocolate cake that are moist and yummy and sinful and just nom.

but since i couldn’t find any in my magic fridge. i had to do something or else die. 

yes, drama and over acting are signs of pms as well so bear with me. 

so what i did, i got a fat glass of milk. lots of ice cubes and gulped it down.

it ain’t cake, it’s not even nearly the same nature as cake. but i am happy.

the irony of life. you wanting cake and not giving up till you end up with a glass of iced milk. 

it’s been so long since i’ve written down random thoughts and now that i am back with a vengeance i write about pms, cake cravings and milk. 

you know better. you know i have sense. 

a hot flush wednesday my lovers .♥

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